Meditation is an ideal way to pray. Using God's word (Lectio Divina) allows me to hear, listen and reflect on what the Lord wants to say to me - to one of his disciples - just like He did two thousand years ago.
The best time to reflect is at the beginning of the day and for at least 15 to 30 minutes.
Prior to going to sleep, read the Mass readings for the next day and then, in the morning, reflect on the Meditation offered on this website.
I hope these daily meditations allow you to know, love and imitate the Lord in a more meaningful way.
God bless you!

Monday, April 14, 2014

Jn 12:1-11 Snap!

Monday of Holy Week
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Judas the Iscariot, one of Jesus disciples, and the one who would betray him, said, "Why was this oil not sold for three hundred days' wages and given to poor?"  He said this not because he cared about the poor but because he was a thief and held the money bag and used to steal the contributions.

Why does Judas say such awful things to the Lord?  I have no doubt Judas was a good man, at the beginning, and that he wished to follow Christ with all his heart.  But over time something horribly wrong happened to him, and somewhere, somehow, he lost his faith in the Lord. 

Has this happened to me?  Has this happened to all of us? 

Be careful, for even the Lord's most loving expressions of affection can seem like pure exaggeration, and be met with suspicion, when one's mind is orchestrating and the heart is ill. 

Every good deed felt like a thorn in Judas' side and became an occasion for cynicism and open rebellion. 

No one is good.  No one is that good.  No one deserves to be respected.  No one deserves my respect. 

Why do we think such awful things?  Because we have been taught to think such things and to believe in such things.

Why do you say these awful things to me?  I know a lot of moms and dads who work tirelessly to keep their teenage children on the straight and narrow path, only to be met with ridicule and scorn by them.  They hear horrible things said to them and wonder:  "Why do they say these awful things to me?  Have I done something wrong?" 

I remember working for a man who was very power hungry, anal-retentive, obnoxious, rude, vulgar and downright mean to people in general and to me, specifically.  I immediately adapted myself to his style of being and found myself acting like a puppy dog in his presence.  Mind you, no one in the office argued with him.  No one complained about him.  No one criticized him.  On the contrary, people showed a great deal of respect towards him.  "Yes, sir!" was what I most often heard in his office.  Strangely enough, the people who worked the closest to him enjoyed working for him.  He made them feel like they owned the place.  It was all like a mafia. 

Now when I got shipped over to a new department, I found myself before a very kind and humble boss - one of those "team player" type of guys.  Unfortunately, I interpreted humility with mental weakness, gentleness with cowardice, and honesty with naiveté.  I would often blow up at him, and for the tiniest of reasons.  But one day, in a strong and calm voice, he asked me: "Why do you say such awful things to me?"  At that very moment, my mind and heart shattered and I felt like a spell had been broken, a spell that had been put on me by my former boss.

It took a while for me to stop standing on my head and to get my bearings straight.

What about you?  Are you still struggling?

I believe Judas had a higher regard for the Lord from a distance than he did close up and personal.  I'm convinced he saw the makings of a great king in Christ's healing powers, but a pauper in His willingness to forgive lepers and love sinners.  I believe Judas was certain the Lord had what it took to establish a new kingdom on earth, but was confused as hell as to why He kept confronting the country's greatest leaders!

Stop doing that! 

It's hard to break the spell that has been cast on us.  It's hard to believe there's a strength that comes from poverty and a beauty that accompanies humility.

Judas snapped before he could change.   

When you look at Judas, who do you see?  I know I see a bit of myself in him. 

We need to change before we snap.


  1. When I look at Judas, I see a man envious and resentful. Jesus performed amazing miracles and grew in popularity. However, Judas was given the task of carrying around that heavy money bag! So, why not steal a little for himself? Why not criticize Jesus to make himself feel a little superior? Why not make a deal with the Pharisees and scribes to put the Son of God to death? Wouldn't that ultimately give Judas fame and fortune? I see Judas as a "black sheep" of the disciples. He sincerely loved and believed in Christ but felt inferior compared with the other chosen disciples. (Hence why he chose criminal activity.) Maybe he was even resentful of Peter, James, and John because he saw them as the Lord's favorites. It's sad Judas committed suicide because the guilt of betrayal became too much to bare. I think many of us can learn lessons from Judas' behavior and strive to be more humble and compassionate.


  2. Wow. What amazing insights. I never saw judas that way.


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