To mourn is to realize a loss. What is there to mourn about if it is not that close relationship, love affair, I once had with God? Somewhere, somehow the flame of faith that once burned bright has been extinguished in my heart. I have allowed the world, with all its glitter and glamour, to consume my thoughts and actions in a way I once let the Lord do for me.
This is what material possessions and earthly thoughts have done to me. They have made me dull. Lent is a time to sharpen the sword, to not let the Word of God die in vain.
The prophets of old were essential in reigniting the faith of God’s chosen people. They opened old wounds so that they would be properly healed. They gave a God-given explanation for the woes they were enduring. The prophets of old communicated God’s words to their brothers and sisters and in turn, the prophets communicated to God the broken hearts of His people.
Why is it so hard for me? Why is it so difficult for me to communicate with the Lord? It wasn’t always this way. Yes. And it was never meant to be this way. If I reflect for a moment, I can honestly say that the Lord has never walked away from me. I did it to him and for this reason I can feel so lonely at times.
It wasn’t like this before... The walks in the cool evening that our ancestor Adam enjoyed with the Lord and his beloved wife have been lost to all. So too, the peace and unity that only God could give and only man could lose was sold so cheap. And we cannot forget our conversations, once so easy, face to face, heart to heart are known today as prayer and are a constant battle for all of us.
“Can the wedding guests mourn as long as the bridegroom is with them?”
No. They cannot. They have it good, very good.
Where there was once unity, there is so much division. Where peace once reined, now only strife and confusion is within me and surrounding me. Can the guest mourn with the Lord at their side? No! There is too much love in the air, too much wonder that fill the Apostles day. There is so much peace and happiness in getting questions answered. How I would love to be in their sandals! How I wish I could walk in their midst. The world finally has a hot spot and that spot is where Christ is. How best to explain this unity, this coming together of all creatures, than to call it a wedding, a feast, a love affair! Is it not the closest unity, intimacy that can be achieved by man on earth?
The Lord allows his disciples to enjoy his company but it will all end one day and all too soon. That day is soon approaching for me too. Forget about 2012.
“I will be with you till the end of time.” Lent is the time of year to go back to where I went wrong; when I blew out the flame of faith or when I went my separate way. Now is the time to return home where the Lord prepares a room in His Father’s house. Prayer, reflection and meditation are the perfect means to enter my inner room and see the Lord face to Face, heart to Heart, spouse with Groom, love with Love. The sun is rising. Darkness is ending.
Lent, like life, is a personal invitation from the Lord to a different type of mourning; the morning of a new day.